Not Quite Everything

I've always felt like I have had a blessed life. Things have always come easy to me. I loved school and always got good grades...well except for that Calculus class in college. I tried out for cheerleading, I made it. I learned to play the piano, then learned to play 4 other instruments. I wanted to work as a waitress at Chili's, so I bugged them until I got the job. I wanted to become a teacher, I did. I have been blessed with a wonderful husband and two perfect kids. I feel like if I wanted something, I would do what I needed to do to get it, but really, for the most part, I didn't have to try too hard.
When I figured out I wanted to be on The Amazing Race, I just knew the casting team would love my dad and I. We did all the necessary things to apply and never heard anything. This was not normal for me. I did what I was supposed to do and I didn't get something I wanted. I then decided we had to try harder and we did. We still have not heard anything. For the first time in my life, I have not been able to have, or even work toward getting something I want...and want more than anything right now.